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yes i am!!! i find it tedious having to maintain two blogs at once. so i’m moving >>>here<<< … will be seeing you there! sayonara!

i shud’ve posted this back in january nho? pero better late than never matod pa ni.. ambot kinsay niingon. wahehehe.. so so so..

The year that was 2005
1. during summer, we had our OJT in cebu. fun.
2. boozing, yo-ing like crazy - tried everything. NASTY
3. night-out sessions with ysai at the children’s park, city
hall, jollibee, el centro, etc. i miss those.
4. saturday nights were reserved for d’zyr - where li used
to sing. fan here.
5. went out with cousins on several saturdays. pasingot dayun ang tandu. wahahaha..

dates to remember:
Oct 9 - ehem. perfect night. Starry starry night. lol
Oct 14 - sai, elvin and lulu. maghubo unta to si virginal. LOL. dead wasted in BATC
Oct 17 - iced tea sa darrens. ysai and lu. pekchur pekchur
Oct 20 - dance and voice class sa family room nilang lulu with ysai
Oct 21 - naabot si ods ug nabungkag tanan. hahahaha
Oct 22 - darren’s with gian, sai, ods and lu. aguy noy!
Oct 24 - arvin, hospicio, ods, lulu and ysai. inom at
lulu’s unya nagsuka ko sa ilang guest room ug ISAW. Wala pajud nako
gilimpyuhan! Bad! nyaha!
Oct 26 - lady’s burger nagkanta kanta. A whole new
wooooorld~ wahahaha the best!!!!
Oct 31 - lulu’s bday sa dzyr! yahoo! Naa pajud cake gibake si
sai ani.. awwwwww
skip to December ky secret ang November. wahahaha…
Dec 2 – lingaw ni nga adlaw ky daghan nahitabo namung saldi.
wahaha
Dec 9 – middleton ky bday ni aki! hubog na ni!!!
Dec 17 - CSM christmas party with lu and jade. nakit-an si
**o**. car broke down at lu’s. busa nagjogging ko at
3am! aguy noy! nyaha
Dec 21 - gazpachos with mitzie and lulu.. fine dining kunuhay unya sisig rajud among
gikaon!!! hahaha.. lami bitaw. nakiginom dayun si mitz sa BATC
Dec 27 - Grade school reunion sa BATC. lingaw ug update update sa kinabuhi.
Dec 28 - High school reunion at Jay’s place. magicsing. inom. sayaw.
yebah!city hall after with gian, shek, ods, and saldi
Dec 29 - BATC napod with with mt. basa, ods and pussy p. gisapot mi atong geisha sa i love sushi. nyeh.
Dec 30 - sexy friday! shek, ods, saldi and emily g. eldran
pod. daghan ug uwagan. yehey! hahahaha..
Dec 31 - just befor 12mn… city hall with ods and saldi.. awwwww.. kakyut!
Jan 2 - sawi session mi ni saldi. 5 bottles of beer for me, 2
iyaha.. clarity!
Jan 3 - arvin, gian and lu sa BATC. had gianinna drive
to arvin’s! yey!

after that.. nagcram na dayun sa school.. wahahaha..

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The year that was (is pa diay.. gamay nalang kulang) 2006… (mag-english napod para serious… hehehe)

A lot has happened this year. I can still remember what I
prayed for even before 2006 began; I asked for twelve months of eventfulness,
and eventful it was, still is. I experienced the horrors of thesis-work, fearing
I wouldn’t graduate but graduate I did. I was off to work that very month,
only to quit several months after. I enjoyed my independence as well as feel
the loneliness of having been far from my family. I met new people, made friends
and even said goodbye to a few. I’ve been to places I’ve only heard/seen on tv and
those where I shouldn’t have been. My family moved for the 1^st
time in 21 years and yet I still can’t call our new house a home. Who would
have thought that I could go quite far in a year, only to fall back at square
one? Yes this
has been a year of firsts for me. Many unexpected things happened and I’m sure more will come. The fire dog hasn’t been good to me but I know that it’s all for the best. I’ll just charge it to experience. Now that it’s almost over, what does the fire pig have in store for me, for us? Oh well, we can only expect the worst and hope for
the best (diba Dorz? :P). Okay, I’m done yammering, now I’m happy. Cheers to all of us! To another year rich with life but
more importantly to the affirmation that it is indeed worth living (diba Salds?
:D)! Keep praying, keep living! God
Bless one and all!

As for my Christmas wish for everyone: I wish you peace but
more than this I wish you love! Happy Xmas!

Cryptic words meander
Now there is a song beneath the song
One day you’ll learn
You’ll soon discern its true meaning
An interesting detachment
A listless poem of love sincere
Desire, despair
Overlapping melodies

Oh now the roots are reminiscing
Recurring dreams of minor chords
Metred time
Muted chimes find the beat

And in the pulse there lies conviction
A steady push and pull routine
The cymbals swell
High notes flail into reach

And it’s not a love, it’s not a love
It’s not a love, it’s not a love song
It’s not a love, it’s not a love, it’s not a love song
It’s not a love, it’s not a love, it’s not a love song

Song Beneath a Song by Maria Taylor

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"by the power of
the written word to make you hear, to make you feel… before all, to make you
see. That — and no more, and it is everything. If I succeed, you shall find
there according to your deserts: encouragement, consolation, fear, charm — all
you demand — and, perhaps, also that glimpse of truth for which you have
forgotten to ask."

~Joseph Conrad’s the Nigger of the Narcissus

hohum… im bored. every idle minute’s wasted on… silly/foolish thougts. and… i miss you. hahay…

i found my way back on that spot
with a brown toad skipping about
through rusty steel fences
to claw up on rocky dirt mounds
its been hours, the orb spider stops
she has woven enough of her masterpiece
all thats left is to lie in wait
for prey to be caught in her trap
a sudden gust of wind flies
and makes its presence known to all
harrassing the greenery about
still the defiant tree stands
for the life of me, i wonder
how far can the toad climb its mountain?
how long will the spider’s web hold?
how much can the tree bend before it breaks?
why do they never wail in protest?
their patience is great
but mine has run out
because no stars shone in the moonsea
save for one that fell on me
only to snuff out the last of my light
so for those of you headed this way
know the travails to come   
throw yourselves in the midst of danger
but keep one eye open at night

everyday she used to think about you
even when you didn’t fit anywhere in her life
but how could you smile now
now when the answer in her mind has gone stale
for that question you never risked to ask
she’s reminded of how you left her cold
when all she wants is to forget
purged and killed your person
torn and ripped you off of her chest
you shouldn’t be here
and with your advance, she steels herself
praying to be kept from your illusions
and that when she leaves to take another form
she chooses to be anything in her next life
but an elephant who remembers her dead

this is the lost ending to calvin and hobbes. it’s quite sad. poor, poor hobbes… got me thinking though…  i wish i had calvin’s pills. *sighs*

*i stole this from doo . i couldn’t help it. she just got to it first coz blahblahblahblah.. wahahaha.. peace doobidoo.

Doushite onaji you na panchi
Nando mo kuracchaun da

Koi wo shite owari wo tsuge
Chikau koto wa kyou ga saisho no good day

Aki no dorama no saihousou
Sore demo mata tatakaun darou

Sakura sae toki no naka de
Yurete yagate hana wo sakasu yo

O yasumi nasai
Yoi yume o

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Sayonara! :-p

gisapot ko karon! i am at my wit’s end!!! sige nalang kog ka-ipit sa problema!!!!! leche!!!!!!!!!!!  dont make the choices i made sound like it was what i really wanted!!!! gikapoy najud ko ani nga style!!! peste!!! palihog ayaw ko i-pressure karun coz i’m still dealing with the unfair judgment you laid down!!!! i  want to go away coz i’m so tired of all this drama!!!!!!!!! soooos.. kung sayun lang jud nga magpalayo, dugay rako nilayo!!! pero dili ko escapist kaya pasalamat jud ky taas kog pasensya!!!!! magpa-ugat pa kog maayo ani! i was trying my best to keep my cool pero kelangan jud ko magpahungaw ky napuno najud ko!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhh… kalami ishagit!!! Lord, tabangi ko ky matuluyan najud kog ka-buang ani.. please.

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